drucilla pettibone

i've been in and out of the vet the last few days with our little dog tallulah, who has been very sick. she seems to be *almost* out of the woods now. we haven't had any massive vet problems (or bills) over the last few years, so i guess it was time. it's just the worst, running around in the middle of the night afraid for your pet, looking to the emergency vet, with their bad instant coffee. at the very least i feel like i have a good relationship with the local vet now - something that's always helpful, but i just haven't had a chance to establish it since we have moved and haven't needed them much. but they have been incredible. i love country vets, or at least these ones..



and, the whole town is battening down with their firewood and food since a huge storm is coming in a few hours. the parking lot at wal-mart was insane. these poor bulbs had just started to look promising with all the warm weather lately.

i'm so frustrated though because with everything that's been going on, i've not had much of a chance to make all the things i have planned. i *need* to get busy. it's like i just can't focus. and i don't *feel* like making something that i think might sell, all i want to do is embroider dogs, even though i am not at all sure anyone will ever want one... they say to make what you love, but then again, i would really like to have a successful etsy shop! someday.

then again, maybe i am ignoring the obvious - the huge granny factor in this area and my love of thrifting and vintage. the little bit of etsy selling i've done would indicate that vintage might work for me. and there is the intense pleasure of finding and enjoying things while they are waiting to find new homes. growing up as my mother's daughter, sourcing (a new to me word! just discovered that's what i've been doing all these years! kind of like the other hot word "staging") comes easy to me. even though it still takes a lot of time, it's not as much as pouring yourself into something handmade. and it's not like i have to teach myself to be a master seamstress in the meantime.

still, i yearn to do artsy and craftsy stuff 24/7, but there's no reason to see vintage and handmade as wholly separate. pia jane bijkerk talks about that beautifully in paris: made by hand - how in france, finding and re-inventing an item gives it that personal, fait main imprint. so there are plenty of opportunities for creativity when doing vintage. and i am often thrifting anyway, so i could just kick it up a notch.

oh well, at least i brought home some crafty supplies for if we get snowed in.